PURGE: Poet's Cut

These are potential poems, random thoughts or poems that I don't have the words to to finish. Let me know what you think or feel.


1.
"If success is
what you make it,
Imma need directions.
A journey,
Imma need a road map


Cuz I'm lost in here, too many wrong turns
my vision is unclear and I'm sitting here looking in the rear
checkin to see if my sanity is sitting back there next to my confidence...
both silently looking at me confused,
wondering how long this ride is and why this ride hasn't turned into a destination,
fuck it! cuz now we all I'm impatient.
I'm exhausted from wasted time,
foot on pedal....roll down all the windows and close my eyes.


(This poem was written in a time and place I have no interest of remembering but its weird because I realize now that it seems so suicidal. Although, I don't believe it was meant to be, It just expresses by frustrations and eagerness to just be done with stresses and the need to feel free.)


2.
"Your name in my phone is saved:
First Name: Disappearing
Last Name: Acts
Nickname: "The Magician"


(This is true. Its a reminder of every time he calls...I'm reminded that soon he'll be gone. I don't know, some things you choose to put up with. Well...until you get tired.)


3.
You knew I would only exit in case of emergency
Falsely, you pulled the alarm.
I didn't feel the heat.
Clearly.
You did.


(This is short and to the point. But this can be placed in any situation where you are unwilling to let go and alternative forces make you. You don't have a choice, sometimes it boils down to you or me and if your sane...you will always choose self.)


4.
Things are so different now
I wish I could take back some of the irresponsible things I did
but I can't.
I'm stuck waddling in the consequences
and it seems as if i still haven't learned anything yet.


(This piece is titled, "Failed Apology" I'm just gonna trust that you get it.)


5.
I hate thinking and missing you especially when neither of the two is something you do in reference to me


(This is probably my favorite line, not because of the meaning, although it definitely encapsulate a lot of what I feel, its my favorite because of its symmetry and ability to mean so much with so little words. You can say this to someone and they understand exactly what you feel without speaking another word. I just admire the simplicity of it and the amazing ways in which words can be placed together to mean more that what you initially expected.)


Thank you. Please comment on my comments or share your thoughts/feelings about my Purge: Poet's Cut.


DK